my graduation issues

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MUSIC PLAYING: pardon me | incubus
KILCHER MODE: panicky geeky oc
QUOTE OF THE DAY: wala eh.

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i am graduating this sem. i should say that with conviction.

come on, one more time, i am graduating this sem.

i know i should be happy. i am nearing my halfway point and the deliverables are almost done. i only have on problem with the uart transmit mode but then again, toots suggested we never put uart in the proposal anyway so i might as well not mention anything about uart. hehe.

ece 198 is my only subject this sem and i'm thankful of that because i get to do those things that i couldn't do if i still have other classes this sem. like maybe sleep until 12 noon and go to school at 3pm. like bring my recently purchased second-hand pc to CEL and get updated on the seattle storm faster hehe.

anyway, i'm finishing college already and i couldn't believe this is what i had dreamed when i was freshman -- to actually finish ece alive. but lately i'm having these nostalgia thingie about my college life.

freshman year went by as a blur. zeus salazar made the most out of my first sem though; he claimed the titles "my most hated prof" and "my most sadistic prof in college". sadistic really. but i got a 1.0 so everything was well worth it. second sem i joined UP ERG. that sem was uneventful. i mean, hello, math series and chem16 were not serious threats to me back then.

sophomore year. first taste of eee life, i think. my batch had experienced the hell that is eee with our first major subject, eee31. 6(?) different teachers taught 6 different sections and they all get to make the exam! que horror! i think they lowered the curve to 50%. good thing i averaged 50.1%. pretty close eh? eee21 naman okay lang even if the teachers were also sadistic. once again, sabit na naman ako. 54% curve, i was 54.something %. it was also sophomore year when i started training with the up fencing club. those were fun times. but i never went to the novice tournaments that year. i guess i wasn't that confident yet. during this year i also experienced the start of my downfall. i failed eee33 and es11 nang sabay! pakshet! i had to endure the summer trying to get exempted in my take 2 of es11. i did and it was more than enough for my bruised pride.

junior year. deee transferred to its new building, the one i'm currently considering my second home. i had to retake eee33 and fortunately for me, i got the lessons right this time and scored pretty well on the exams. i had to drop es 12 though coz it was pretty hopeless. my exams were so low that i would be digging my own grave if i didn't drop it. same goes for math 114. i had cejalvo and no matter how fez reasoned out that she (the prof) was a great teacher, i just couldn't get her style. and she didn't want any answers that doesn't coincide with her style. so i ditched her class. i passed the remaining subjects though. i finally joined the novice tournaments in fencing that sem and was out of the gunning for the top 16. my stupid knees gave out and i had given up 4 lead points. second sem i still trained but it with was more effort, more attention and more time. needless to say i didn't manage my time perfectly so i flunked out on two subjects. for the first time in my life i had to worry about that darn 24-unit rule of up-engg. i was 22 units by the end of the academic year so i took 6 units during the summer, es12 and math114. passed them both and i was still in eee.

senior year. i was vp for sports and leisure in ERG. wala lang. finally wanted to steer my life into the right directions. i can't remember any traumatic events here. except for the engg week coz it was like the core job description of my committee.

supposed-to-be-graduating year. the coe121-coe115-ece113-eee190 era. stupid coe121. bloody hell coe115. quite okay ece 113 and freakishly harassing eee190. darn stupid proposals. darn stupid digital signal processing. darn stupid running PE during the first sem. the second sem was a bit different because for once, i actually had a perfect spotless sem. i also took basketball as my pe that sem, kahit na sobra na ko sa pe, hehehe. stupid summer though. took a 3-unit lab course that turned out to be a full 9-unit load for the difficulty. darn microstrip engg.

sixth year, first sem. it's where i'm at now, trying to finish my thesis. and i think i'm having withdrawal stuff about leaving college. i realize that i still want to play basketball for erg next semester. i realized i still want to participate in the eng'g week. i realize i still want to take pe 3 for basketball. but alas, i am graduating this sem so i don't know about that. i wish i can find out how to take additional units even if you had your grad papers already processed.

i am graduating this sem.

that means i have to review for the boards next semester and probably grovel around for a job.

that means i have to act like an adult.

that means i don't get to reason out that cara does things for me so i don't have to do what people (i.e. bosses) want me to do.

that means i really have to grow up real soon...like probably in a matter of three months.

i am graduating this sem. i badly wanted that to happen from freshman to fifth year. i wanted to finish everything so i didn't have to study and be harassed with eee stuff anymore. but then again do i really want out? do i really want to graduate? am i ready to go out there?

hay...i don't know. i guess i'll see when i get there. and by there means october, after the final presentations of the undergrad thesis projects.

but first, why doesn't my uart mode work?! freaking pakshet!

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kilcher is currently in her last sem in up diliman. her thesis project is titled "Development of a Low Cost, Low Power, Off-the-Shelf SRD Transceiver Module Operating in the ISM Band (915 MHz)"

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