the whatever post

mood: tired and sad and ewan ko ba
song of the day: love moves in mysterious ways | julia fordham
current rave: wala.

I just wanna post this song. I've been very sad lately. I don't even know what's happening to me. Lots and lots of frustrations and other whatnot's are making me crack up. I know I should remain sane for the next months but I dunno, this stupid thesis is making my whole life miserable. I wanna do all the things that I've been doing. Somehow that is not possible anymore. I find myself in a super-weird dilemma of trying to catch up with all the emotions but unfortunately, I can't seem to do it. I always get this stupid headache and I dunno, I guess I can't tell anyone anymore.

I know I've been deadma lately. But what can I do? I don't have free time anymore. Haay...I wish that this thing be gone sooner... I don't know if I can handle another depression. Hay. Baka di ako makapagpigil sa mga magawa ko. Malala pa naman ako pag depressed.

Now I've been thinking lately. I let my guard down a few years back. I ignored my fear back then. And now, I think that fear is coming back. I dunno. I dunno. I dunno. I dunno if I should wear my heart on my sleeves just like what I'm doing now. I dunno if I should bury it in ice for the meantime or let it be where it is now. I dunno. What I know is that I'm trying my best for this thing.

But I'm sorry if I can't do everything. I'm not perfect. I'm human too. I get tired sometimes. I get cranky at times. I'm sorry. I feel guilty too. I promised that I'd do everything and give all that I can give.

I've been thinking of so many reasons why this is happening to me. Unfortunately, no reason is good enough to explain why this is taking place. Hay, I guess I will just let myself fall down to the pit once again, just like so many years ago. I guess I will have to wait if I could climb back up again.

Julia Fordham - Love Moves In (Mysterious Ways)

Who'd have thought
This is how the pieces fit?
You and I
Shouldn't even try making sense of it

I forgot
How we ever came this far
I believe we had reasons
but I don't know what they are
So blame it on my heart, oh

Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising
When love appears over the horizon
I'll love you for the rest of my days
But still, it's a mystery
How you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways

Heaven knows
Love is just a chance we take
We make plans
But then love demands a leap of faith


So hold me close
And never let me go
'Cause even though we think we know
which way the river flows
That's not the way love goes, no

Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising
When love appears over the horizon
I'll love you for the rest of my days
But still, it's a mystery
How you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways

Like the ticking of the clock
two hearts beat as one
But I'll never understand
the ways it's done

Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising
When love appears over the horizon
I'll love you for the rest of my days
But still, it's a mystery
How you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways
Love moves in mysterious ways

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Alam ko malabo yung post ko. Wag niyo na lang intindihin. Ako lang nakakaintindi niyan.

[ survey from nikki's blog ]

Natuwa naman ako sa survey na to na nakalagay sa blog ni nikkinooh hehehe :)

1. What is your favorite type of literature to read (magazine, newspaper, novels, nonfiction, poetry, etc.)?
fiction, especially fantasy novels. tolkien, guy gavriel kay, terry goodkind. that kinda stuff. i also like mafia-inspired novels. pwede na rin yung tungkol sa espionage. i'm a big fan of mario puzo and robert ludlum.
pwede na rin mags. kaso i don't get the satisfaction kapag maigsi lang yung binabasa. although minsan okay lang din kapag sobrang ganda nung mga articles. i think i can handle poetry. my favorite poet is christina rossetti.

2. What is your favorite novel?
dami eh. pag di kasama mga trilogies, i'd say it's the LIONS of AL-RASSAN by Guy Gavriel Kay. Okay na din yung The Client, To Kill a Mockingbird, and Catcher in the Rye. Favorite trilogies and/or series include THE GODFATHER, The Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter, The Fionavar Tapestries, Sword of Truth Series, and more. (I can't seem to remember all that I've read).

3. Do you have a favorite poem? (Share it!)
I have lots of favorite poems. I like writing myself if I'm in the mood. I used to write nonstop when I was in high school and nung start pa lang ng college. If you wanna read some poems that I've written feel free to browse the archives.

As for the works of other people, I'd pick Christina Rossetti's and Pablo Neruda's poems.

Christina Rossetti (1830-1894)

When I am dead, my dearest

When I am dead, my dearest,
Sing no sad songs for me;
Plant thou no roses at my head,
Nor shady cypress tree:
Be the green grass above me
With showers and dewdrops wet;
And if thou wilt, remember,
And if thou wilt, forget.

I shall not see the shadows,
I shall not feel the rain;
I shall not hear the nightingale
Sing on, as if in pain:
And dreaming through the twilight
That doth not rise nor set,
That doth not rise nor set,
Haply I may remember,
And haply may forget.


Remember

Remember me when I am gone away,
Gone far away into the silent land;
When you can no more hold me by the hand,
Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay.
Remember me when no more day by day
You tell me of our future that you plann'd:
Only remember me; you understand
It will be late to counsel then or pray.
Yet if you should forget me for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad.

Christina De Guzman (hehe)

Am I Still The One?

Standstill it seems where we are.
Crossroads, doubts, uncertainties.
The happy days seem indeed so far.
Feels so shattering, feels like love is war.
We may both end up with scars,
Feels like we may never reach the stars.
Standstill I am but drowning.
I fall flat to the ground but it feels like I'm hanging.
Silence between us but it's deafening.
Happy we seem but not rejoicing.
At this confusing point we stand,
Like always I'm holding your hand.
I'm missing the jitters
I'm missing the exhilaration.
Somehow I'm missing everything,
Everything I have had with you.
But when I glimpsed to my side
You're still with me I come to see
Makes it easier for me to decide
Whether or not to stay by your side.
All things leave me as I am
Clueless, stupid, useless
Coz I don't know if you still want me.
Love is like war.
Sometimes we win, sometimes we don't.
But still the same
We both end up with scars.
Yell at me.
Be furious.
Get angry.
Coz I'm useless...
Stupid...
Worthless...
I am no good to you.
But then I have summoned enough courage
To say I still want you
And you're still the one.
Standstill I am but I'm drowning.
I fall flat to the ground but I'm still falling.
Silence sure is deafening,
Standstill.
Standstill, idle we linger...
Until I know if you still want me.
Standstill.
Standstill, idle we remain...
Until I know if I'm still the one.
Tell me, am I still the one?



4. What is one thing you've always wanted to read, or wish you had more time to read?
hehe wala pa naman akong naiisip. Some more GGK books sana kaya lang wala pa kong copy. or sana magkaron na ng paperback na Naked Empire (Sword of Truth Series). Sa wakas kasi natapos ko na din yung Silmarillion eh.

5. What are you currently reading?
[1] CC2400 Data Sheet
[2] CC2400DBK User Manual
[3] Atmel AVR Instruction Set
[4] Atmel Atmega8L Data Sheet
[5] 113 Notes
[6] 141 Notes
[7] and many mooooooooorrrrre to come ahuhuhu

A- Age: 21
B- Boyfriend: none
C- Chore you hate: i don't like washing the dishes.
D- Dad's name: devil pig. seriously, jomar ata ang pangalan niya. si jake kasi jomar jr. so baka nga jomar ang pangalan ng creature na ito.
E- essential make up item: wala kahit ano.
F- favourite actress: renee, zhang ziyi
G- gold or silver: white gold
H- hometown: hinigaran, negros occidental
I- instruments you play: guitar
j- job title: student
K- Kids: basta mabait okay na. :)
L- Living arrangements: sometimes with THE FAMILY, sometimes with the spectrum analyzers and oscilloscopes.
M- Mom's name: Mila
N- number of people u've slept with: ahahahaha! loko to a.
O- overnight hospital stays: used to have these a lot of times when i was younger. lalo na nung grade school ako. meron pang time 1 month akong di nakapasok sa school.
P- Phobia: acrophobia, claustrophobia, arachnophobia
Q- quote you like: sorry can't remember anything. sabogers ang utak ko ngayon.
R- regular drink: COKE!
S- secret crush: secret nga eh bakit ko naman ipopost dito
T- time you wake up: 7am pag weekdays, 12noon pag weekends na walang pasok
U- unique habit: inventing all kinds of words. hehe. ang kulit ko kanina. fantasterific...fantabulous! ots ots, ekek, chuvanelles.
V- vegetable you refuse to eat: AMPALAYA is the enemy.
W- worst habit: tamad, ma pride, pikon minsan. lakas mambara. :) dami pala. sus.
X- X-rays uve had: chest, foot
Y- yummy food you make: sorry i can't cook unless yummy para sa inyo ang hotdog, pancit canton at other instant chuvanelles.
Z- zodiac sign: aries.

I hear you on the radio
You permeate my screen
It's unkind, but
If I met you in a scissor fight,
I'd cut off both your wings on principle alone, principle alone.

Hey, megalomaniac
You're no Jesus
Yeah, you're no fucking Elvis
Wash your hands clear or yourself
baby and
Step down, step down, step down.

If I were your appendages
I'd hold open your eyes so you could see
That all of us are heaven sent
And there was never meant to be only one, to be only one.

chorus

You're no Jesus
You're no Elvis
You're no Jesus
You're no Jesus
You're no Elvis
You're no answer.

Step down, step down, step down, step down, hey.

--Megalomaniac, Incubus

[ stupid week]

dunno what's happening to me. so confused. darn. dapat bang mangyari sa kin to? was it my fault? did i do something wrong? hay.

[ sarbey againandagainandagain ]

mood: grrrr!!!
song of the day: milkshake
current rave: wala!

. . . W O U L D Y O U R A T H E R . . .*
1) pierce your nose or tongue?
neither

2) be serious or be funny?
i try to be serious at times pero i end up being funny

3) drink whole or skim milk?
i hate milk. hehe

* . . . A R E Y O U . . .*
4) simple or complicated?
very complicated that sometimes i don't even understand myself

* . . . D O Y O U P R E F E R . . . *
5) flowers or angels?
flowers na nga. hehehe...

6) grey or gray?
gray. parang color-colour lang yan.

7) color or black-and-white photos?
pwedeng sepia? i like sepia more. hehe pero b&w mas gusto ko, mga kinukuha ko ngang grad pic puro b&w eh.

8) lust or love?
plastic ako, love pa rin.

9) sunrise or sunset?
sunset. i usually wake up when the sun has already risen.

10) M&Ms or Skittles?
m&m's pero okay rin skittles, may pagkacandy kasi skittles eh.

11) rap or rock?
whatev!

12) staying up late or waking up early?
staying up late. i never wake up early.

13) TV or radio?
radio

15) eating apples or oranges?
apples, hassle yung orange eh.

* . . . A N S W E R T R U T H F U L L Y . . . *
16) Do you have a crush?:
er...

17) Who is it?
sikretong malupit!

* . . . D O Y O U P R E F E R . . . *
18) being hot or cold?
cold?

19) tall members of the opposite sex?
nah, not really. wag lang yung mas maliit pa sa kin.

20) sun or moon?
moon.

21) emeralds or rubies?
diamonds hehe (labo ko)

22) left or right?
right

23) having 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend?
1 best friend = 10 acquaintances. plus i never get to harass my acquaintances eh hehe.

24) sun or rain?
rain! masarap matulog! :)

25) vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?
chocolate ice cream. fine pwede na vanilla, wag lang talaga ube.

27) green beans or carrots?
wala!

26) boys or girls?
as?

28) low fat or fat free?
low fat. fat free wala ng lasa yun eh

* . . . M I S C E L L A N E O U S . . . *
29) What is your biggest fear in the world?
heights.

30) Kids or no kids?
generally, no kids. pero pag mabait tsaka di makulit sige na nga pede na :)

31) Cat or dog?
dog! i hate cats!

32) Half empty or half full?
almost always half-empty

33) Mustard or ketchup?
Ketchup

34) Hard cover books or soft cover books?
hardbound if you have the money.

35) Newspaper or magazine?
Newspaper

36) Sandals or sneakers?
sandals!

37) Wonder or amazement?
wonder

38) Red car or white car?
aqua blue car

39) Happy and poor or sad and rich?
ay ayoko ng tanong na to hehehe. sad and rich na lang at least di naghihirap hehe.

40) Singing or dancing?
dancing. i can't sing to save my life.

41) Hugging or kissing?
hugging!

42) Corduroy or plain?
plain

43) Happy or sad?
sinong may gusto ng sad?!

45) Blonds, brunettes?
brunettes

* . . . A B O U T Y O U . . . *
46)What time is it?
1224am. [ akala ko ba about me? ]

47)Full name?
Maria Christina I. De Guzman

48)Nicknames:
Tina, Tinapotpot, Tinats, Teanuts, Crystal

49)Names and ages of siblings?
Demon (Joey) 19; Jakey (17); Cara (16)

50)Number of candles that appeared on your last
birthday cake?
had a cake and it had marvin d martian on it pero no no candles eh

51)Date that you regularly blow them out?
zzzzz....

52)Pets?
right now, wala

53)Height?
eto na naman. hehehehe. almost 5ft nga eh.

54)Eye color?
black

55)Hair color?
black

56)Piercings?
ears

[ sarbey andallthatjazz ]

mood: defeated | sulky | depressed
song of the day: do i need a reason? | d'sound
current rave: SLEEP!

1. Do you have an alias/a.k.a? what is it? =
--> tina, tinapotpot, tinats, teanuts

2. What is your favorite ice cream flavor? =
--> anything chocolatey. anything na nga wag lang ube.

3. What movie/s are you waiting for? =
--> troy, hidalgo, cold mountain, runaway jury

4. If you wanted to be in a band, what type of
genre of music would your band play? =
--> 80s, pop rock

5. what is the weirdest thing you've ever eaten?
--> does isaw count?

6. do you want to live with your parents forever
or move out?
--> sa bahay ng parents pag wala pa kong maraming pera
pag may maraming pera na, sarili na hahaha

7. Where is the place you want to be right now?
--> sa kuwarto ko sana, natutulog kasi di pa ko nakakatulog.

8. What song do you listen to, to feel happy? =
--> jewel songs

9. In The Lord of the Rings, who is your
favorite character?
--> haldir! haldir! haldir! pede na rin si fafa(mir) hehehe.

10.In Star wars, who is your favorite character?
--> obi wan

11.What movie/s made you cry? =
--> my sassy girl.

12.Name famous people that you have a crush on?
--> leggy! ahaha orlando forever! woohoo! antonio sabato jr. lolz.

13.What is your favorite drink? =
--> drink? what drink? coke! coke! coke!

14.What cartoon is your favorite? =
--> calvin and hobbes

15.Who or What cartoon character do you wish
were real? =
--> si calvin at si hobbes. love ko sila eh.

16.Paper or Plastic?
--> er...paper?

17.If you could freely kill just one celebrity,
who would it be?
--> wala. kebs ko sa kanila.

18.Coke or Pepsi? =
--> COKE FOREVER!!! addict na ko eh. :)

19.In a week, how many times do you go online? =
--> almost all the time, with all the free resources lying around the lab, naman hindi ka ba naman matempt nun.

20.If you could be someone else for a whole day,
who would it be?
--> hehe...dunno...

*******

survey ulit

Describe your:

[ x ] Wallet -- long wallet na reebok

[ x ] Hairbrush -- hairbrush? comb ako eh mahaba na pseudo hair doctor.

[ x ] Toothbrush -- pink na oral-b

[ x ] Jewelry worn daily -- mukhang m&m's na beads na bracelet, my whitegold ring tsaka necklace na manipis.

[ x ] Pillow cover -- brown (yung andito sa CEL), sa bahay, maroon.

[ x ] Coffee Cup -- yung yellow na napanalunan ko sa raffle nung christmas party ng CEL.

[ x ] Underwear -- hala...

[ x ] Favorite shirt -- my artwork shirts (yung mga white na katulad dun sa coke ko to commercial)

[ x ] Cologne/Perfume -- anais anais, CK One

[ x ] Tattoos -- wala eh.

[ x ] Piercings -- ears lang hehehe

[ x ] In my mouth -- huh?

[ x ] In my head - the cranium that houses that gooey gelatinous material called brain.

[ x ] Wishing -- i'd pass ece 141, please Lord God, let me pass...

[ x ] After this -- wait for elai to appear so that we could finally start on that darned thesis proposal.

[ x ] Fetishes -- mata.

[ x ] Person you wish you could see right nnow -- shhhh...

[ x ] Is next to you -- nobody. nawalan bigla ng tao dito sa cel eh.

[ x ] Some of your favorite movies- my sassy gurl, so close, crouching tiger hidden dragon, lord of the rings

[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month -- birthday ko yebah!

[ x ] The last thing you ate -- err... lunch na beef sa CS canteen where else?

[ x ] Something that you are afraid of -- heights, closed spaces and spiders.

[ x ] Do you like candles -- okay lang.

[ x ] Do you like incense? -- nah.

[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood -- pretty weird but yes, yebah bampira na ko!

[ x ] Do you believe in love -- whatdapak?!

[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates - dunno. pwede na rin siguro.

[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight -- i don't think love yun. might be infatuation lang. para sa kin ha?

[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven -- oo naman.

[ x ] Do you believe in God -- oo kaya lang ayokong pinipilit akong magsimba. i believe that He's there.

[ x ] What do you want done with your body -- cremate siguro. mummify? hehehe.

[ x ] Who is your worst enemy -- demon bro

[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be -- darn, gusto ko ng chowchow!!!

[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up -- up to 4pm of the next day.

[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks -- nung wednesday, mignon and jocris lectured me on how to eat with chopsticks sa tokyo tokyo sa megamall after ng pldt field trip namin hehe.

[ x ] What's your favorite coin -- yung 2 piso dati, yung hindi bilog, astig eh.

[ x ] What are some of your favorite -- dogs, fish, yun na.

[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand -- i can't do everything that they want me to do. sometimes i fail. people fail. i can too. hindi ako perfect.

[ x ] What's something you wish you could understand better -- ece 141 andallthatjazz. and also why people have to be really stupid sometimes.and oo nga pala, eto pa, kung nakakatulog pa ba nang maayos yung mga taong nakakasakit ng kapwa nila. hehehe kasi ako okay lang. makapal kasi ako eh.

[ x ] Who is someone that you really wish was still around -- wala naman. high school friends siguro. kinda miss all that kalokohan before eh.yung bago pa maging seryoso ang lahat.

mood: wala lang deadma lang pakshet eh
song of the day: how did you know

magpakasenti muna tayo at nalulungkot ako ngayon kasi ang dami kong exams ahuhuhu :(

I remember so well
The day that you came into my life
You asked for my name
You had the most beautiful smile

My life started to change
I'd wake up each day feeling alright
With you right by my side
Makes me feel things will work out just fine

How did you know
I needed someone like you in my life
That there's an empty space in my heart
You came at the right time in my life

I'll never forget
How you brought the sun to shine in my life
And took all the worried and fears that I had
I guess what I'm really trying to say
It's not everyday that someone like you comes my way
No words can express how much I love you

-- How Did You Know | Chiqui Pineda

i'm sorry. i offer no explanations. just a plain i'm sorry. i hope that is enough.

[ malas day ]

mood: pained
song of the day: wala lang
current rave: bandaging my right foot

>> i got a sprain sa right foot ko. the world should rejoice now. after quite a number of years eto na naman balik na naman sa dating gawi. injured na naman. but mas malala yung ngayon. never felt this painful before. dati kinakaya ko pa. ngayon ewan ko na lang. had to take a cab home na nga eh. salamat nikki!

>> sige saka na lang ulit

>> dagdag lang:

just when i think that everything's alright
something's always going to be wrong.
it never really fails.
it's always the same case.
tough times and i don't know if i'm coping up.
tough times and i think i'm falling behind.
would fate be kind to bless me with a day of peace?
would fate be kind to let me be at ease?


>> pakshet yung reaction paper ko pa!!! oh no!

[ some ramblings after a day spent inhaling lead ]

mood: some kinda sulky
song of the day: whatever
current rave: koc age 3 beta version

ano na ba nangyayari sa yo lately at parang nawawala ka sa sirkulasyon?

wala lang. lahat na ata nangyari sa kin nitong past week. najan na sunod sunod ang pagdating ng problema and i thought kakayanin kong deadma lang sa lahat. pero hindi pala. someone as stoic as me could break down anytime. natutunan ko yan.

bakit ang drama mo naman ata?

ano bang problema mo? eh sa nagdadrama pa ko eh. teka tuloy ko lang. ewan ko lang. i've spent almost all the years na may malay ako trying to build up that shell around me. it's just been a while since i let my defenses down and i dunno how i would feel. confusing sobra.

what's keeping you busy?

madami. i wish i could enumerate them. hehe. sige simulan natin. rrl, 190, 113, yang 141 na yan, yang progress report chuvanelles na yan. yang mga ewan na yan. yang microstrip na yan. ewan ko na lang talaga ha.

ano pa reklamo mo sa buhay ha? puro ka na lang reklamo eh

hoy kaya nga may blog no...para mareklamo ko lahat ng pwede kong ireklamo. hay i wish everything is still the same. period. i know i've been trying too hard. but i guess it wouldn't hurt to try some more, would it? i mean, ika nga ng isang tao diyan, you stop ONLY when you cease believing...however, you don't cease believing JUST LIKE THAT... so i guess, yun na yun no? alam ko corny na to...pero ito yung sagot ko dun sa last post ko...yun yun.

so yun na yun? kala ko pa naman kung ano na..

yun na nga. kulit.

[ pathetic me ]

mood: ewan ko
song of the day: ewan ko
current rave: ewan ko

how do you know it's time to stop?
how do you know it's time that you let everything wear you out?
how do you know it's time to cease believing?
how do you know it's time to give up?

[ zzzzz ]

mood: kebs
song of the day: someday | nickelback
current rave: nickelback

How the hell'd we wind up like this
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And try and turn the tables
I wish you'd unclench your fists
And unpack your suitcase
Lately there's been too much of this
But don't think it's too late

Nothing's wrong, just as long as you know that someday I will

Someday, somehow
We're gonna make it alright, but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow
We're gonna make it alright, but not right now
I know you're wondering when..yeah

I hope that since we're here anyway
We can end up saying
Things we've always needed to say
So we can end up staying
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Let's rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror

Nothings wrong, just as long as you know that someday I will

Someday, somehow
we're gonna make it alright, but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow
We're gonna make it alright, but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that...)

How the hell'd we wind up like this
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And try and turn the tables
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror

Nothings wrong, just as long as you know that someday I will

Someday, somehow
We're gonna make it alright, but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow
We're gonna make it alright, but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
I know you're wondering when

>>>hahahaha! wala lang. wala lang. gusto kong magdarts! hahaha.

>> got this from macy knox's blog hehehe

1. friends or boyfriend/girlfriend?
~~~ hala hehehe

2. college or high school?
~~~ high school...i hate college

3. angelina jolie or julia roberts?
~~~ julia roberts!

4. brad pitt or tom cruise?
~~~ brad

5. basketball or volleyball?
~~~ prolly bball, pe ko kasi yun this sem. pero i can play both :)

6. eastwood or malate?
~~~ eastwood

7. redhorse or strong ice?
~~~ don't drink beer

8. mcdo or jollibee?
~~~ depende...most of the time mcdo

9. may bf/gf or wla?
~~~ hala ulit lolz.

10. grudge or ring?
~~~ ayoko ng ganitong movie

11. go for younger or older? (bf/gf)?
~~~ a lil bit older but not too much siguro

12. j. lo or janet jackson?
~~~ janet

13. rubbershoes or sandals?
~~~ bubbershoes

14. lotr or harry potter?
~~~ LotR. nuff said. hp is no comparison.

15. cellphone or computer?
~~~ uh, tough question ha? pwedeng both na lang?

16. globe or smart?
~~~ globe.

17. christmas vacation or summerbreak?
~~~ christmas. walang pasok yun eh. summer meron.

18. brains or goodlooks?
~~~ a lil bit of both.

19.have you watched return of the king?
~~~ but of course, lotsa times pa nga eh.

20. when?
~~~ december-january.

21. counterstrike or ragnarok?
~~~ counterstrike. pero i'd go for diablo and siempre kahit text-based lang, KoC!!!

22. adventurous or romantic movie?
~~~ adventurous in what sense? kung fast and furious sige.

23. winston or marlboro?
~~~ zilch

24. manila bulletin or inquirer?
~~~ hehehe di ako nagbabasa eh

25. abs or gma?
~~~ abscbn

26. pillow w/o blnket or blnket w/o pillow?
~~~ pillow w/o blanket

27. girbaud or esprit?
~~~ benetton!

28. badminton or tabletennis?
~~~ table tennis! di ako marunong magbadminto eh

29. kisses or toblerone?
~~~ kisses!

30. math or science?
~~~ pareho lang

31. nokia or samsung?
~~~ sony ericsson!

32. beermen or aces?
~~~ wala wala wala!

33. o'sullivan or deuel?
~~~ sino to?

34. bmw or mb?
~~~ bmw!

35. mango or banana?
~~~ mango

36. malls or bars?
~~~ go for the malls. i'm not really a bar-person eh

37. y ru answern this?
~~~ kasi ang tagal ng nanay ko dumating eh magpiprint pa ko sa office nila

38. would you answer more surveys such as this?
~~~ pag wala siguro magawa. why the heck are you even asking this question?

39. who do you think will read this?
~~~ yung mga blogsters ko, duh

40. what's up?
~~~ not much



>> pathetic day. groggy pa rin.

[ hell week ]

mood: surly slash nabubwiset slash bangag na slash drained
song of the day: every lil thing he does is magic | shawn colvin?
current rave: wala!

>> will be posting some song lyrics that touches the seemingly breathing biological thing that's apparently inside my left chest. for quite some time i thought it was sleeping in ice. for quite some time i thought it hardly ever beat at all. for quite some time, yes. for quite some time, about a couple of years ago. i had thought i'd wanted to become numb, to become distant from everything that was happening around me. now i don't know. (yuk yuk yuk). i guess not anymore. hehe tama na nga. tama na nga. tama na nga. tama na nga. tama na nga. tama na nga.


Though I've tried before to tell her
Of the feelings I have for her in my heart
Every time that I come near her
I just lose my nerve
As I've done from the start

Every little thing she does is magic
Everything she do just turns me on
Even though my life before was tragic
Now I know my love for her goes on

Do I have to tell the story
Of a thousand rainy days since we first met
It's a big enough umbrella
But it's always me that ends up getting wet

Every little thing she does is magic
Everything she do just turns me on
Even though my life before was tragic
Now I know my love for her goes on

I resolve to call her up a thousand times a day
And ask her if she'll marry me in some old fashioned way
But my silent fears have gripped me
Long before I reach the phone
Long before my tongue has tripped me
Must I always be alone?

Every little thing she does is magic
Everything she do just turns me on
Even though my life before was tragic
Now I know my love for her goes on

-- STING, Every Lil Thing She Does is Magic

You consider me the young apprentice
Caught between the Scylla and Charibdes
Hypnotized by you if I should linger
Staring at that ring around your finger
I have only come here seeking knowledge,
Things they would not teach me of in college
I can see the destiny you sold
Turned into that shining band of gold

I'll be wrapped around your finger

Mephistopheles is not your name
But I know what you're up to just the same
I will listen hard to your tuition
And you will see it come to its fruition

I'll be wrapped around your finger

Devil on the deep blue sea behind me
Vanish in the air you'll never find me
I will turn your face to alabaster
When you find your servant is your master

And you'll be wrapped around my finger

-- STING, Wrapped Around Your Finger

You are Form 0, Phoenix: The Eternal.

"And The Phoenix's cycle had reached
zenith, so he consumed himself in fire. He
emerged from his own ashes, to be forever
immortal."

Some examples of the Phoenix Form are Quetzalcoatl
(Aztec), Shiva (Indian), and Ra-Atum
(Egyptian).
The Phoenix is associated with the concept of life,
the number 0, and the element of fire.
His sign is the eclipsed sun.

As a member of Form 0, you are a determined
individual. You tend to keep your sense of
optomism, even through tough times and have a
positive outlook on most situations. You have
a way of looking at going through life as a
journey that you can constantly learn from.
Phoenixes are the best friends to have because
they cheer people up easily.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

My inner child is sixteen years old!

Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.


How Old is Your Inner Child?
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NIKKI! bakit ganun?! hehehe ikaw 6 years old ka lang! ako 16! ang weird hehehe apparently i've grown up over these past months. hehe

[ KoC announcement ]

according to the site of kings of chaos age 2 is nearing its end!!! which means, age 3 na!!

>> age 3 beta will start SATURDAY FEBRUARY 7, 2004. pero beta version pa lang to and walang prize chuva sa mananalo, beta version nga eh. feel free daw to say something about what you don't like dun sa version na yun. magreklamo hanggang may irereklamo hehe. sana wala nang sabotage immunity. ang corny na eh.

>> KoCERGs!! we have to do something RADICAL sabi ni erika hehehe...ano naman kaya yun? eh kung pagtripan kong atakehin lahat ng gusto kong atakehin? kahit si LordStriker pa yan hehehe. :D

oh well..

[ live a.i.d.s 20 ]

mood: tired/bangagers/sleepy
song of the day: ang bango-bango ang bango-bango ng bulaklak
current rave: LIVE AIDS!

grabe just got home from LIVE AIDS, that show by the UP SAMASKOM every year. pramis nakakatawa na naman sobra.

>> ang galing ni Herb! hehe feeling close eh. ang ganda ko!!!

>> katakot si bulak hahaha ako legal wife

>> too bad tuesday vargas wasn't there kanina. i heard she's gonna perform tomorrow. awww. :(

>> ate glow didn't appear in person, vtr chuvanelles lang siya.

>> the opening was nice. and lalo na yung introduction/welcome fine, you are not welcome! ni herb.

>> what's next na nga ba? aah, yung pageant. winner! ang galing ni smeagol/gollum! kamukha hehehe. pwede na rin si Love Añover (from the College of Mass Communications daw) hehehe too bad walang engg. we're too boring for them hehe. ang galing nung Miss B.A., hehehe DVD, DVD, bili na kayo ng DVD and sino pa ba? hmm...yung mga hindi ko makalimutan, si Jackie Lou as Miss CHK! Siya pa rin yung Jackie Lou nung last year and i think umonti ang role nila this year. di ko na maalala yung iba. ay wait, si Miss Tourism pa pala, ang pretty ng pesteng bading na yun (wait, bading ba siya? baka mamaya, nag-assume lang ako na bading siya hehehe) hehehe..

>> after gollum/smeagol won the pageant, miriam defensefor santiago did a monologue. the actress has some kind of a dishwashing product commercial ata. hinihingal siya habang nagpeperform yun lang. ako ang tunay na baliw!!

>> next, ano na nga? aha, yung crying ladies! hehehe unang nadun yung tatlong crying ladies na di naman kasali sa istorya epal lang nang epal parang referee baga or narrator hehe. basta tas nadun yung isang babae, kamukha ng nanay ni san chai! Akong!!!! San Chai: bakit kaya si mama kinwento pa buhay niya pati ang sex life hahaha...AKO ANG LEGAL WIFE a.k.a. Bulak hehehe...sa kanya daw dapat mapupunta yung mana kasi may anak daw siyang LALAKI hehehe eh bading naman! (note: erg peeps, remember VICE? yung nagtanong dati kung may radiation chuvanelles ba sa vlc? nadun siya, siya yung bading na anak). ANG FIRST WIFE: mainland china wife daw siya arranged marriage hehehe at ang anak si GOGO POWEL LANGEL!!! hahahaha, cute ni gogo dun may dala dala pa siyang bilog chuvanelles hehehe ang cute pala pag nakajapanese high school girl uniform hehehe makahanap nga :D ayun tas basta naghabulan na lang sila sa huli nung sinabi ni San Chai na nasa kanya ang mana.

>> next came tita glow na pinasakay niya sa roro niya ang mga presedentiables at si loren tara-tena!....tas napadpad sa isang island. may tatlong parang ewan dun. may sobrang higante pang lalaki (oo, feeling ko lalaki talaga yun pero ang lakas ng loob niyang magsususuot ng ganun ehehe). tas nadun si (1) RAUL BUCO na tatay na at lahat eh puro kabastusan pa rin ang alam ehehe may nakadikit pa na buko sa ano niya hehehe (2) LOREN LABADA hehehe tara-tena (3)PINK LACSON ehehehe bading!!! (4) FPJ napatay niya nang di oras si BUCO hehehe...ang galing nung KRIS AQUINO impersonator nila, she's even better this year. lowla tj told me she's a dj sa magic 89.9

>> ano ba next? lumabas si TITO BOY ABUNDA hehe na direktor pala this year at may sumigaw mula sa audience. hehehe si SVETLANA something something BUSH daw a.k.a. BABY BABY heheheh ang kulit ng motto: B5! Baby Baby Botohin Bansa's Bobongga! hahahaha ang galing...

>> ang haba ng part niya in fairness halos 30 minutes siyang andun....winner pa rin yung SM sweet sales ladies! woohoo! natawa talaga ako dun sobra.

>> spot na sunod. eto yung part na seryoso na yung sayaw. ang galing! ang galing! ang galing!

>> finale na ang ganda ng costume nila although parang ang bilis lang ng finale this year. oh well. :D

ayan, yan muna. high pa rin ako. isang atake lang sa KoC at makabili ng dragonskin or flaming arrow kelangan ko makatutulog na ko.

dash it for tonight (err...morning na pala)