Impending Banishment

hahaha! grabe itong nanay ko, may pauso na naman, aba dun daw sa Baguio sa summer dun sa Noviciary. Pinaalam na daw niya ko kay Father Dado...anyway, kasi itong mader dir ko ay financial officer ng isang order ng mga fathers...and brothers pa pala..hehehe...galing nga ko sa "holy place" kanina...ang sarap ng pagkain grabe! (thank you ate vicky! da best ka talaga magluto!) anyway, back to the banishment thing, hahaha, hindi ko alam kung papatulan ko yun...sabi niya kasi para matuto daw akong mag-isa..aba narerealize na ng nanay ko na hindi ako independent...sa buong <21-x> years ko sa mundong ibabaw, ngayon niya lang narealize...(x yung years na pede kong i-consider as "childhood" pero since wala ata ako nun...) anyway, para daw matuto chuvaloo, maglaba, gumising nang maaga kasi pag hindi ako nagising nang maaga wala na akong kakainin...uubusin na ng lahat ng mga novice yung foodie...pero come to think of it, puro guys ang kasama ko dun! masama...hahaha, magkocorrupt ako ng mga magpapari...baka hindi sila pumasa sa pagiging novice! lolz!

pero mas gusto ko patulan yung gimmick ni fez...hehehe san kaya kami pupunta no? basta sana may transpo pero kung wala, aba magbus na lang no! para walang pagod! hindi ako papayag magdrive ng walang substitute no! napilitan lang ako nun nung pumunta kaming pangasinan kasi wala naman talagang sub pero my gas, antok-antok ang drama ko nun sobrang sinusubuan ako ni biggie lil sis carabelles ng coffee candy para magising...

ano pa ba? parang ayoko na pala patulan yung exile na yun...pero kung ilang araw lang, why not? magpaakyat din ako ng friends ko para masaya...hehehe kunyari alam ng nanay ko ako lang mag-isa...teka, may sinabi pa pala siya...joskoday! magmeditate daw ako dun! hindi kaya ng powers ko! malala! hahaha! anyway, may mahatak naman kaya ako? paging nikki! paging tj! hahaha! baguio tayo sa summer! wag nang galera! :D hehehe...

may niwento pa sa kin inang bayan tungkol kay DEVIL PIG...hahaha, hindi na magbabago yun...kailangan pala lahat ng nasa pangalan ng momsie ko ilagay na sa kin kundi naku, ayoko nang may kahati...sa kanila na siya! nandidiri ako! yuck! basta kelangan ko ng LAWYER ngayon na!

uh oh, hanggang kelan na lang ba voter's reg? si demon pa pala kelangang samahan (pakshet naman, ang tanda-tanda na niya kelangan pang samahan, tas lalaki pa siya, isang malaki at malutong na pakshet..) bakit kaya ako nun, ako lang naglalakad ng mga papers chuvaloo ever ko? mula sa student's permit hanggang sa driver's license na na hindi na ko pinagtest drive buti na lang kasi di pa ko masyado marunong nun hahaha...hanggang dun sa hellish experience na pagregister sa city hall noon na nakakabwiset kasi ang dami-dami ng mga taga-district2 (dist2 ba yung nasa may commonwealth?) tas ang onti lang ng sa district 1....pero dabounce, hapon na ko natapos...mas malala pa sa reg ng UP...

isa pa pala, addict ako ngayon sa POMELO a.k.a. SUHA, or kung ano man ang tawag sa kanya...galing kasi si momsie dearie sa davao...nag-1-week work chuva siya dun and feeling malaya ako hahahaha...siyempre parinig to the max ako na dalhan niya ko ng suha di ba? o ayan mga suha mo, pag di mo naubos yang sampung malalaking yan, ewan ko sa yo...hehehe...reminds me of the time na nagparinig to the max din ako sa isang tao diyan na naaaddict ako sa SINGKAMAS, aba kinabukasan, binigyan ako ng 2 kilong singkamas...grabe na ituuuu! hindi kinaya ng powers ko malala...katulong ko na nun sina fatty carabelles and jakey jake jake d autistic artist kuno hahaha...pati pa pala si ging at si tita...hehehe..pero hindi talaga kinaya ng mga powers namin...:D buti na lang naubos...if i remember it right, ako pa nga ata umubos nun...tas may time na naaddict ako sa PEARS kasi madalas mag-uwi si momsie nun...and most of all, siempre hindi makakalimutan ang pinakafavorite sa lahat, PEACHES! i'm going to the country i'm gonna eat me a lot of PEACHES! hahaha! meron pa nga ata kong peach slices sa baba, courtesy of someone na nagmagandang-loob at dumalaw sa maysakit hahaha! maraming salamat, lowla tj! yaan mo, after magsettle nitong suha lalantakan ko yung slices mamaya...:D

o sige dito muna, ang daldal ko na...

BEE HAPPY

in a few minutes, bee happy day na! woohoo!

BTW, wala akong naaccomplish sa mga sinulat ko...natulog lang ako buong araw kasi pumasok ako wala namang silbi pagpasok ko...umuwi tuloy ako nung lunchtime..:D

ACAD MODE FOREVER

THINGS TO DO:
carry over from yesterday

coe 115 mp
-hardware
-software (c/o elay)
-docu

coe 121 machine exercise
-start na with some parts of it (pedeng bukas na lang to)
-start reading para di na mawindang pag take home exam na.

eee 54 design exercise
-start reading about oscillators chuvaloo!

COE115 again
-tictactoe algorithm

PHYSICS 104
-aral na! may exam sa wednesday!


IMPORTANT DATES TO REMEMBER
sept27 =masaya to!
sept28 =the running thingie in ULTRA
oct1 =physics104 LE4
oct3 =coe121 machine exercise due!
oct4 =physics 104 finals 9a-12n
=coe121 LE4 10a START
oct6 =coe121 LE4 8a END
oct13 =coe121 finals


isang malaking pakshet!!!

pakshet nawala yung picture...kainis...

hectic day ahead

haay...dapat nasa school na ko ngayon pero since walang training kaninang umaga, ayos lang...tas elai texted me na lunch, before lunch or after lunch (di ko matandaan which one) pa siya makakarating sa eee so pano na? ano naman gagawin ko dun? kaya yun, natulog na lang ulit ako. nakalimutan ko pang gusto ko palang puntahan yung interview ng batch head ng mga apps ngayon, drat! anyway, ang weird kahapon. ang saya naman nung hapon pero nung night na biglang sumabog.bad trip pa i was so tired to even think about doing something about it.basta.so yun, sana naman okay na ngayon.mejo masakit pa nga hita ko.kasi naman yung long stride long stride chuvaloo na pauso ni jopet eh.

coe115.kelangan na naming gawin at deadline na bukas! ahuhuhuhu...we still have to test it.baka gabi na lang kami uwi ni elai kasi i have to go somewhere ng between 4pm and 6pm eh..hehehe...ayun, tas docu pa! pakshet talaga! ahuhuhuhu...pero keri lang ang docu...tas natapos ko na yung solder thingie ng hardware namin kaso napaso naman ako ng pakshet na soldering iron na yun sa daliri..grrr...

coe121.can't believe it, tapos na ang coe121...well, technically hindi pa kasi may mp9 pa sa lab at may 4th exam pa at finals pero haaay...pakshet ikamamatay ko tong subject na to talaga...bwiset...

friendster.friendster astig to!!! ang kulit-kulit...ang dami-dami kong nakikitang familiar faces woohoo! nakakaddict siya...

bball.ayun.yun na yun.nakakapagod pala siya.grrr...shet bakit ngayon ko lang narealize na nakakapagod siya?

mader dir mama mia is still not home. last time i checked thursday pa uwi niya from davao...kaso uh oh, i'm running out of moolah! had to photocopy loads and loads of notes kaya nauubos pera ko tas bili bili pa ng mga gamit sa mga mp ekek...oh well, pero i'm enjoying the freedom naman eh hehehe...at least i get to have the car while she's away...pakshet pinakamadumi nga lang kasi wala akong oras at pera para makapagpacarwash at kung ako man gagawa nun, wala din talaga akong oras at lakas para magcarwash no.

carabelle biggie lil sis told me last night that she joined the peer volunteer group...lolz...bait talaga nun...

anyways, dito na lang muna...post ko lang things to do ko:

THINGS TO DO FOR TODAY
coe 115 mp -
-hardware
-software (c/o elay)
-docu
coe 121 machine exercise
-start na with some parts of it (pedeng bukas na lang to)
-start reading para di na mawindang pag take home exam na.
eee 54 design exercise
-start reading about oscillators chuvaloo!

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short bloggie entry for tonight.i have to study for coe115 pa.sa monday na to eh.un.baboosh!
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mood:ewan ko...im trying to fix the layout of the bloggie pa..:D

P A K S H E T !

dumex.st.luke's.weirdsmell.stupid elevator.claustrophobia.rainy rainy rain rain.bigplate.sarap ng sisig.pakshet,pakshet ang 115 ever.pakshet, pakshet di pa rin ako magaling.p.e.running.pero di ako nagrun.5k.drive, drive, drive.gas.road trip.brake.maroon pillow.maroon kumot.maroon jacket.maroon everything.boing boing.type type.solder solder.uwi.very dark, sobrang dark, pinakadark.pakshet ang circle.hirap.drive drive drive.hindi to in-order hahaha.noodles.pancit canton.noodles pa rin.carabelles.text.chikka.rubik's cube.yes, hahanapan ako ni nikki ng rubik's cube! hahahaha. the best yung rubik's cube.pink, i see pink...the color pink.pakshet si elai makapink.kakainis.sweet coron.bee daw yun sa sanrio.mahanap nga.ang galing ng kapatid ko.dragonfly.tas ako.bee.o davah?wala.lang.pakshet.ever.atras ever.pakshet the kapitbahay.di marunong magpark.pinaatras pa ko para magkasya siya.ang laki naman ng space niya.pakshet.bobops.may di ako maalalang kanta.pano ko sasabihin?di ko nga maalala eh.lokohan na to.type type ever.forums forums.hala sirain ang buhay.pero hindi, recover everything.ayusin ang dapat ayusin.gawan ng paraan ang lahat ng dapat gawan ng paraan.like drive drive all morning.dumex.st.luke's.himatayin.basta gawa ng paraan.kasi may bigplate naman eh.or kahit anong pagkain.harharharhar.appetite.stupid appetite.sakit sa mind.sakit sa heart nitong ubo ko.sakit sa heart di ko matuloy yung tryouts.gusto ko na bumalik on monday eh.pero naman kasi naman eh.wala.lang.forums forums.ang saya sa ergforums kahit onti lang.pakshet tagal na ng nickelback a.wala pa rin akong kopya.ng this is how you remind me.tagal na ko hinaharrass ni carabelle.babs.piggybabs.unan ko yan.taba-taba kasi.taba-tina.yuck,di bagay.tagal naman ng 15 minutes na yun.kinalimutan pang nagtext akong nasa bahay na ko.oh well.ganun na lang siguro talaga.kailangang tanggapin.tanggapin na lang na minsan makakalimutan ka rin.ewan.pakshet.galit ako sa green ngayon.pero favorite ko ang green.kahit puro blue ang suot ko.at blue halos mga layout and stuff.ewan.galit din ako sa pink.pakshet.kahit pink yung damit ko sa informal.pakshet.15 minutes.10pm.10pm.drat!phone.text.throat problems.stupid throat.dapat pinaalis ko na tonsils ko dati.fair ng kisay.o eh ano ngayon?panget si divine bambacious.PANGET SI DIVINE BAMBACIOUS.sama ugali.kapal ng mukha.mukha ba yun?kapal naman.kakarmahin yun.PAPANGET PA SIYA LALO!hay.pakshet.11:03pm.pakshet.hintay lang.la ka naman magagawa kundi maghintay.makakatiis ka ba?dadating pa ba ang panahon na yun?na makakatiis ka?pakshet.pakshet.pakshet.pakshet.walang sense to lahat.pakshet.

thank you for all the little things
that you have done for me.
like when you're always there when i had to cry
like when you're always there to wipe my tears dry.

thank you for all those little things
those things that really matter to me.
thank you for making me feel i'm the best when i feel like i'm the worst.
thank you for changing my life into a better one...

in the event of my sickness

Do I need a reason to tell you why
I'm singing you this song
Do I need a reason to show you that
I know where I belong
Whenever I am weary I lean on
this feeling that I have
I am so much stronger now
Thankful, yes I am

-Dsound

You came and you got me gazing at you at an instant.
You spoke a word and you got me hanging on to every word you say.
You smiled at me and you entered my dreams since then.
You entered my life and you turned the whole of it upside down.

You talked to me and I found myself comfortable with you.
You shared your tales after I told you my horror stories.
You got your dilemma and I had to admit that I had my own.
You reached out to me and I found myself out of my melancholy.

You told me you love someone and you didn't know how I cringed inside.
You asked me what to do with it and you didn't know if I could give any answer.
You were hinting that it was me and you didn't realize I could perceive it fast.
You made me realize I shouldn't be too afraid to give it a chance.

You asked me if I love someone and I said yes, I do.
You wondered who that was and I told you about another person.
You were hurt, I guess, but I was busy masking my feelings.
You were still there for me and so I thought I'd just tell you how I really felt.

You looked into my eyes and in one fleeting moment, you got through my barriers.
You held my hand and you made me feel I'd never be alone again.
You hugged me and you always made me feel alright since then.
You kissed me and your lips I felt hours and hours after.

You never left me and I always had you here beside me.
You always said you love me and I knew I couldn't ask for more.
You loved me and I felt really blessed to have you.
You asked me if I love you, and I told you that I do, I really, really do.

You came and you captured my heart in an instant.
You spoke a word and you got me wrapped around your fingers.
You smiled at me and your smile is forever in my thoughts.
You entered my life and you made it a better one.

And now, when you ask me if I love you, I will tell you that I do,
I love you, I love you, I love you…
I love you because of what you are to me and what I am to you.
I love you because you're you.

I lack the will I used to have
With my voice reduced to a wail
For this moment I failed to love
I was forbidden to exhale

--donated by master jeyel

Karamay.
Sa mga bagay-bagay na nais makamit.
Sa mga mithiing binuo nating dalawa.
Katuwang sa mga pangarap.

Karamay.
Sa mga sandaling malungkot at masaya.
Sa mga panahong tayo'y magkasama.
Kasama sa lahat ng mga alaala.

Karamay.
Sa mga luhang kusang dumadaloy.
Sa mga nakalubling mga panaghoy.
Katulong sa lahat ng mga pighati.

Karamay.
Sa mga bagyong nais manalanta.
Sa mga unos na ating nalagpasan.
Kahati sa lahat ng mga problema.

Karamay.
Sa lahat ng oras na ako'y di makabangon.
Sa lahat ng oras na ako'y walang masandalan.
Kakampi sa lahat ng oras na kailangan kita.

Karamay.
Sa lahat ng mga pinagdaanan.
Sa lahat ng mga panahong nagsilapasan.
Kaisa ng damdamin.

Karamay habang-buhay.

coe 121 i hate you!!!! pakshet!!!

grr naman this day...napakamukhang-ewan...sobrang sakit ng katawan ko tas harrassed ever sa mga quiz na hindi ko alam na mangyayari pala at sa pagkakahaba-habang kinacram ko ngayon...aaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhh!!!!

kakanta na lang ako ngayon...[i]and i'm ready to take a chance again....ready to put my love on the line with you......[/i] hohohoho! yan na lang muna, bangenge pa ko eh...

WISH I COULD LET YOU GO
for the thing that is so three years ago...

I wish I could have been prepared
Once and again I had told myself
If only I could accept what has befallen
If only I could see 'twas my heart you'd taken.
Light and swift you were
And I wasn't even a bit aware
I had fallen for you before I knew
I had fallen, I concealed that it was true.
I longed to see you
I craved to be with you
I'd have waited in the hallway all day
I'd have begged you to stay.
But cruel fate had it for me,
When, on my sleeve, I once wore my heart.
'Twas that you were cruel as any could be
'Twas that only nonchalant words you could impart.
I wish I could have been forewarned
Once and again I had told myself
If only I could accept what has befallen
If only I could see 'twas my heart you'd broken.
Time I spent to get away from you
Time I wasted to get back at you
But you didn't even care a thing about me
Didn't even give a tiny damn about me.
What fool was I to let myself be like this-
Just for someone utterly worthless?
What fool were you to let me go?
I could have loved you with all my soul!
Now time I spend to seek myself
Time I spend to see you're not the one for me.
Now time I spend to toughen myself
Time I spend to unfasten the hold you have on me.
I wish I could face you now
My heart devoid of all pain and inhibition
I wish I could tell you somehow
My heart is healed from all your painful infliction.
I wish I could let you go
Without the hatred and accusation
I wish I could let you go
Without telling you I could have loved you with all my soul!

la lang. this day is so chaotic...nung morning i was doing my design problem and then the next moment, nasa gym na ko naglalaro ng basketball..ewan ko it felt liberating kasi parang andami kong pasan-pasan this past week...wala lang...pero i'm not really sure about it though...masaya sana kung mapasok ako pero sana masaya din yung taong yun para sa kin...wala lang kasi feeling ko hindi...yeah, mali nga yung di ko pagpasok kanina...ewan ko ba, gusto kong magrebelde all of a sudden...ewan ko...ang gulo...

Am I Still The One?

Standstill it seems where we are.
Crossroads, doubts, uncertainties.
The happy days seem indeed so far.
Feels so shattering, feels like love is war.
We may both end up with scars,
Feels like we may never reach the stars.
Standstill I am but drowning.
I fall flat to the ground but it feels like I'm hanging.
Silence between us but it's deafening.
Happy we seem but not rejoicing.
At this confusing point we stand,
Like always I'm holding your hand.
I'm missing the jitters
I'm missing the exhilaration.
Somehow I'm missing everything,
Everything I have had with you.
But when I glimpsed to my side
You're still with me I come to see
Makes it easier for me to decide
Whether or not to stay by your side.
All things leave me as I am
Clueless, stupid, useless
Coz I don't know if you still want me.
Love is like war.
Sometimes we win, sometimes we don't.
But still the same
We both end up with scars.
Yell at me.
Be furious.
Get angry.
Coz I'm useless...
Stupid...
Worthless...
I am no good to you.
But then I have summoned enough courage
To say I still want you
And you're still the one.
Standstill I am but I'm drowning.
I fall flat to the ground but I'm still falling.
Silence sure is deafening,
Standstill.
Standstill, idle we linger...
Until I know if you still want me.
Standstill.
Standstill, idle we remain...
Until I know if I'm still the one.
Tell me, am I still the one?